Thursday, December 11, 2014

A Piece of the Puzzle

WARNING: personal admission to follow-
A friend just text me about a very difficult circumstance in her life. When she mentioned the words, "I'm just so tired of fighting to get ahead and fighting for everything I've got", it felt like instant deja vu to a conversation I had with my pastor some time ago. I was telling him that I was "so sick of striving." He said, "Well then stop. Stop striving. Stop fighting. Rest. Ask God to do the work that you feel so driven to do & then take your hands off and see what happens." I can tell you with tears in my eyes, that I did not take that wisdom well. It is not easy to be told to step away from something you feel the need to control. Little did I know that nothing, and I mean nothing would improve until I followed that simply yet profound advice. James MacDonald recently posted: "Until Christ reigns without rival on the throne of your heart, you are an accident waiting to happen." Boy is that true. Certainly in my own life, at least. I have no idea how many people I have pushed away, hurt, or confused by my inability to see myself as I should have. I have tried to mend bridges I believed were burnt. Many situations have moved on with or without me. This has to be ok. When we grapple for control, the most loving thing God can do is take away the object of your idolatry. For a while, I thought this as cruel. Why would my Jesus stomp on my passions? Now I can see more clearly. Jesus wants to guide my life. Left alone, I will make a mess of things, even if it doesn't seem like it for a while. Another dear friend told me that "in the surrender is where Christ gets to flex His muscles." I love that. I will admit I don't really "get" grace. It's easier to strive, fight and work. But Jesus says Rest. Hands off. Lay it down. I hope this is helpful to someone in over your head today. Blessings.

Designed by the Creator

A girl from the church's youth group just took this picture and simply magnified it.... Unbelievably beautiful and in perfect design from the Creator.
How many times do a brush away a similar snowflake in annoyance when it lands on my eye-lash or nose and disregard the work of God....
much less think of myself as a perfectly-designed creation made specifically unique by my Creator.... humbling to say the least!!!

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Happy Thanksgiving 2014


I am most thankful for my husband who has tenderly loved me through dark days, uncertainties, & life changes this past year. I am amazed daily at my 3 beautiful children & don't want to take for granted their good health. I choose to believe that this time next year, I will look back to today and see that Jesus was carrying me all along. I know the reality is that I have been given more than most people around the world, and each day is a gift that I must embrace for God's glory.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

11 Months Old

Tanner Lee is 11 Months Old. Still weighing 28 lbs, starting to wear 2T clothing and is cruising around furniture. He loves food, cuddles & squeals in the most adorable ways when Daddy gets a chance to come home from training!!! Almost party time for our little man! (wish we could freeeeeze time!)

We tried a couple's selfy with our butternut colored clothing ;)

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Our 10-Year Anniversary!!!

After dating 5 years, we finally tied the knot- Friday October 8, 2004!!!






Still very much in love and stronger than ever after 10 years!!! :)

Thursday, October 2, 2014

10 Months Old

Tanner Lee- 10 Months Old!!! 26.7 lbs. and 31.25" tall! (a chunky yardstick!) Tanner is finally crawling! He has 8 teeth, eats everything in site and already shows a huge interest in Thomas the Train...(wonder why!?)